Tuesday, April 12, 2011

learning to believe

I have had so many things going or should I say racing through my mind since this weekend that I am trying to process it all. I had the privilege of going to Launch your creativity on Saturday with 3 new friends. I must say I had only met one for a split second in my driveway and the other two were a mystery. I was nervous. You see, I have this funny thing that happens to me when I am put into a new situation. I am afraid. Afraid that I will be judged, turned ones nose upon, gossiped about. But, I have been learning to be brave. So that day I put on my brave girl boots. I do believe with out a doubt that God strategically placed me in the company of these beautiful woman for a reason (Amber,Rita, Nicky). To believe. To believe in myself, to open my eyes to a whole new world of creative woman and opportunities that I did not know existed. To gently tell me that yes, I can and do deserve to do this. You see I create because I have a deep seeded need too. It is something that is deep within my soul that I must use my hands to create things. I see the world differently. Art is therapy for me. I must make art to heal for many many reasons. But I have always felt that I can create but I don't deserve too. What I have learned is, the reason I can create, is because I do it from a place that is raw, real, broken but yet beautiful. I make things to heal. While I sat at this conference among very talented woman, I started to believe, I started to dream. I felt very convicted that the reason I can make pretty things is because each time, I am able to dig deep into the broken parts of my heart and turn them into something beautiful. So here is to making something beautiful. What beautiful things are you making? xoxo

3 comments:

Rita said...

Ciao Jenn,
so nice to have met you and knowing that you leave so close and you are a blogger! Believe me now that you have met the crazy ladies it can only get better. There is not time to "judge" in our world of creativity, just sharing ideas and laugh! Welcome to our world. Tata for now Rita Mammabellarte

Amber said...

You are so talented and I am very happy for you that you are sharing your beautiful things with others! I am also very happy our paths have crossed.
xo, Amber

Pansy Cottage Girl said...

Jen,
I have no doubt that God had your appointment with all of these ladies scheduled long before any of us knew it would take place.

I am so proud of you that you stepped out (in your brave girl boots)of your comfort zone. Here's a little secret....I'm just like you!
Sending you a BIG hug~